And this week it's
Oh dear, this is a really tricky one for me...
This is something I feel I've been searching for my whole life, and here I am, aged almost 50, and I'm no closer to finding it - let alone rediscovering it!!
There's always the dictionary definition:
the reason for which something is done or created or
for which something exists
but as a typical Type 4 Enneagram person, I have always struggled with a sense of identity, and thereby a sense of purpose.
Yes, I've had 'mini-ambitions:
- at 14, after reading Jude the Obscure, I knew I wanted to go to Oxford
- after college, I knew I wanted to travel, so I spent a year in Kenya teaching at a Bible College
- in my mid-20s, having met Nick, I knew I wanted to get married and have children
- in my 30s, finally having the children I longed for, my focus was on being the best wife and mother I could be
- in my 40s, I finally tapped into my artistic self and began to draw/paint/write, then the stroke hit
And what of the colour?
It's the strong, regal colour worn by emperors and bishops... not a colour you find much in Nature, though it's very striking when you do!
It's not a colour I warm to much, or use much, though I did find these two early creations made several years ago
So, I'm gong to have to sit with this card awhile, and really ask and seek what it means right here, right now...
Already there's a glimmer in my morning reading:
There are two ways of spreading light: to be the candle or
the mirror that reflects it.
Now, I've never been one to set the world alight, but I do like the idea of reflecting the light of brighter souls... I'm naturally a moon person, rather than a sun follower, and maybe, just maybe, that's an equally valid life-purpose.
I'd love to know your thoughts on this week's word :-)